Can broken be used?

Do you feel like your pain is so deep,for so long it can never be fixed?Do you wish you never had the cracks in your life showing your hurts? There is a reason for every thing Ecclesiastes 3.There is a time for every thing.

This week is hard for me, maybe it is the fact that over 30 years ago my mother died of cancer.Or a year ago my best fur friend Winston my old English sheepdog ,that walked with me through everything for 15 years is now gone .Or maybe it is that 7 years ago I sold a blessed company God gave me, and I sold it on the same day as my other 2 events .

Do you ever feel broken? Have you ever  felt a crack in you that is leaking and something is coming you out ? Do you wonder, will you ever make a difference?May I  I remind you ,a reason for everything I am not qualified to  produced a prosperous. company I am not qualified to write.  I a not qualified to do much as when life looks at broken ,we place it aside.


BROKENNESS:  comes in many ways,Having been fractured or damaged and no longer in one piece or in working order.

You can find a way to have the brokenness work . Allow Jesus to heal ,and restore you .Gather all the broken pieces into the original container ,crush the whole part of the hurt,(even the parts that may not be broken).

Allow the broken pieces to create a new !


Take your brokenness and lift it to God , He creates ALL things New !  Isaiah 43:18 ,19 Remember not the former things,nor consider the things of old.Behold I am doing a new thing,now it spring forth,do you not perceive  it?I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.

Broken  making a way !





Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. No one has seen God at any time. If we love one another, God abides in us, and His love has been perfected in us.
I John 4:11‭-‬12

Love is more than simply warm feelings;it is an attitude that reveals itself in action.How can we love others as Jesus loves us? By helping when it’s not convenient, by giving when it hurts, by devoting energy to others welfare rather  than our own, by absorbing hurts from others without complaining or fighting back.

I can tell you from a place of much darkness, pain , rejection,and  abandonment , it is one of the HARDEST  things I have had to learn ! You may be saying you didn’t have to learn it. For me I did. You see I  decided at the very young age of 4, when I looked around me at the adults and saw all the abuse and pain. I  recall saying to myself , I’m not going to be like them. No the pain and abuse didn’t stop until many decades later.Yet it did and I have been able to allow Jesus my VERY BEST REAL FRIEND ,to teach my what true love is !!

You see we all have choices, and free will. Many of us have been and will be hurt in life. It’s our choice to allow ourselves to be who Christ has created us to be in this life . I may not have the education , the gifts and talents many of you have. And yet  through this process of my destiny walk I have released the anger, pain ,the  disappoints. and I have decided I DON’T want to be like anyone else !! I AM UNIQUE. Not for any other reason , except GOD’S LOVE.He  held me through every storm, every fire, all the rejection . Am I healed?Yes. I still get hurt, I still feel the pain from family and friends . I hurt where I see others going through  hard times .

I have been told I have a right to not forgive them .That they don’t deserve to be forgiven, for the life they took from me .That they need to suffer as I have had to . Yet as that innocent child I know It was all wrong. I  determined and even spoke out loud. I will never be like you ! And as I am here today with a life that has went through many fires, I KNOW LOVE !!

Love is  the flame that keeps life alive !!

To my 6 children;You are my love,I respect you …

To my husband !! My knight; You captured my heart , the moment I saw your eyes! My heart melted.  For the FIRST time EVER I felt butterflies inside of me !!!!You are  the man who has only shown me true kindness ,giving me of his complete love . We are designed to show GOD’S GREAT LOVE !

If YOU take the first step to Jesus, I promise He will hold you , heal you , help you and NEVER let you go !!


Love is patient,

Love is kind

Love is does not envy,does not boast,it is not proud.


it is not-self seeking,it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the TRUTH, Always  protects,always trusts always hopes always perseveres.

LOVE NEVER FAILS         1 Corinthians 13:4,8

If this can help just one person, than you are the one that I went through the journey I did.You are worth it, YOU  matter.I CARE, please feel to share or email me ❤

Communicating with Integrity

Respectfully,Special k

I not seeking people to follow me .. I WANT with all my life to follow Christ!!I desire that I lead people to Jesus ..ONLY HIM      Thank you all.









Today is about overcoming problems and obstacles.

Verb, succeed in dealing with (a problem or difficulty) to prevail over (opposition,a debility, temptations etc.)

To defeat (another)in competition or conflict.

Psalms 27:1 The LORD is my light and my salvation-whom shall I fear?

The LORD is the stronghold in my life -of whom shall I be afraid?

Isaiah 41:  I am the Lord your God I will take your right hand and say to you >Do not fear, I will help you .

Her first job is starting. It will not come with vacation days, sick days, or even a pay-day. There will be no insurance, she is her only help. This was not a job; it was more torture in her prison. She is taken to a strange place where all she remembers, is a closet where the doors slide sideways. They don’t open normal to her. Somewhere between the closet and the truck ride into Chicago, the man tells her that he really does not work for the mayor, that the job he has is called a pimp. She hears that word over and over in her mind, yet she has not a clue what it means. There is no one to ask and by now she has learned not to ask him anything. She does know that uh oh feeling she has in her stomach is back.

He will not explain what it means. Many times, she will stand in front of the mirror to find she can’t see herself, for her eyes are swollen shut. She turns her head slowly, tilts it just right. There is a small crack in her right eye. She can see. Why, why is this happening? This is a place she wants out of so badly. Will the bruising and marks stay forever? Maybe she was wrong? She isn’t different. She will be a nothing. See look at yourself, that’s the truth. As she painfully takes herself away from the mirror, the view is forever in her mind. Take some more drugs. Still, there is much fear inside of her. The days turn into week, months, and years. Always she wonders, does anyone remember her? She tells herself, you really weren’t anything. They were right; you have made your life worse.

She is doing more now. Drugs, coke, downers, uppers, and heroin. Just give up.
What do you think? You are nothing. What did you do to have the world hurt you so much? Wasn’t it enough to be hit by that drunk driver that just left you on the side of the road? For her to be taken to the hospital and they were not able to truly help her because her pimp was there wanting to get her out before someone finds out who she really is. Who am I? Wasn’t it enough when you were raped over and over again because you were so tired you fell asleep in a car? Wasn’t it enough when he had you walk down the street and he kicked you as hard as he could? Every third step with his black stack pimp shoes on. Surely it should have been enough when you overdosed and lie on the floor, watching the people there slap you on your cheek, calling your name as you stood above them watching, then standing before what I knew was to be Jesus and she asked if she could please go back. She’s not ready to die she wants to live! It was such a gentle, kind and peaceful place there. Why would she choose to want to live, to go back to the pain and then the decision would be to allow her to live? Is this a really bad dream? Why was life ever made? Why is there more pain and why did she keep finding it?